Again with the TMI:
I had an AMAZING night with my man last night! I decided that only I can change what I want changed, so it was a night of romanticism, soft porn, wine, hoots, and sensuality EXTRODINAIRE!!!!
Soft porn (from A&E Channel) is beautiful! And sensual! And totally not fair!! You see tits, ass, even a flash of pussy, but never cock. Ever.
However, for those that like the sexy without the actual close up joined shots, this stuff is hot hot hot!! And, it reminded me how to BE sensual. Watching those girls strip for the man, writhing their bodies, touching themselves... watching the man's eyes as he drank it all in... made me go "hmmm". So I whipped out some Creamsickle massage cream and gave myself a wee chest massage. Holy Banana Feathers!!! I haven't seen that look in his eyes in YEARS.
It made me realize that I have a hot body that my husband hasn't seen before... and dammit, I can USE it!! And guess what.. he doesn't SEE the flaws. He sees the new skinny parts. He sees the boobs. He sees sexy. He sees sensual. He sees whatever it is that I want him to see.
I talked once about bathing suits, and how I'm so much more conscious NOW than I ever was fat. Cuz noone has expectations of hotness from a fat chick, but one that is closer to skinny, people are more critical of (read: I am). Well, I took that into the bedroom. My big big BIG mistake.
I forsee a whole lotta sexy time in my future. Time to reconnect on a level of intimacy. I don't care WHAT he is watching on tv, if I'm feeling it, I'll put on a little show for him and I guarantee (I hope!!) that I will get what I am needing. And if not, then I finish what I start, and he gets a good show. Win/Win.
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About Me
- ♥ Dee ♥
- Maple Ridge, BC, Canada
- I'm incredibly happily married. I have a teenage and an adult son, both of whom I adore. I have a Cairn and a Weiner dog, both neurotic in different ways. I love life. I love being healthy. It took me two years to get here. Now I'm here, and I'm looking for the next path. The last one took me to "healthy". The next one needs to take me to "longevity".
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My family.
Before: 208 lbs
Whoa.
With my grandson
I don't even know how much I weigh here, but it's up there.
Awesome hair, but DAMN gurl, eat a carrot stick!
31 lbs gone
40 lbs gone
Officially overweight instead of obese!!
55 lbs gone
30 gone, 40 gone, 44 gone, 60 gone.
145!!!
4 comments:
LOL! I think I need a cold shower!
You crack me up!
I think the whole sex as we age thing needs to be talked about more. Sex as we age and lose weight is a whole other ball of wax, and complex. Then add sex as we age , lose weight, have been together for a LONG time ( hubby and I are married 28 years and have been in a committed relationship with each other for 31), sprinkle it with menopause and the male equivalent ( I am 51, he is 54)and any issue you faced in your 20's seems like a laugh. You are on the right track ! We ARE sexy, no matter what our head tapes want to tell us, and there is NOTHING that says we cannot initiate something. Enjoy your new sense of empowerment !
wow Dee!!
wow, I have been away for too long. This is great to come back to, who needs romance novels? :) you rock dee!!
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