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Wednesday, September 17, 2008

No more popcorn for a while...

I'm having a hard time squeezing in those extra calories. Not from the popcorn, per se... but from the oil.

I'm now seeing why I didn't do so well on Core at this size. When I was bigger and needed more calories it totally would have worked for me like a dream. However, to maintain my size now, or even lose, it takes really restricting calories. And even eating clean, the calories add up.

I've always struggled with the popcorn dilemma. I love having that nightly munch. On core I justified it that I was getting my healthy oils and it was all Core. But with the calories, I'm seeing just how many I was consuming, and it is all making sense now. Popcorn will have to be a once a week indulgence rather than an every day indulgence, that's all.

I'm eating well, and staying under 2000 calories, but man, it's a struggle. My goal this week is to stay under 150 for the wedding. I'm confident I can do it.

I saw pics from the stagette I was at on Saturday. I can't stop staring at my stomach. I just want it in a liiiittle more. It still has a curve out that I'm not really happy with. If only I could spot reduce. The rest of me shouldn't be getting any skinnier or I'll look like an Etheopian... lol.

Okay, off to work I go. I hope everyone has a fantastic day.

Here's my fuel for today:

Br: 1/2 cup oaty yoghurt, 1/2 cup blueberries, 1/2 ounce ground flax & glass of milk
Lu: 1/2 cup couscous, 3oz leftover mushroom stuffed tenderloin, 1/2 cup each steamed carrots & celery
Sn: 1/2 cup cottage cheese, Frank's Hot Sauce
Sn: 1/2 can tuna smooshed with 1/4 avocado
Dn: 4 oz ham, 2 baby potatoes, 2 cups swiss chard
Sn: glass of milk

Calories in: 1327 (if I were to add my popcorn it would be 1826)
Calories out: 2130 (includes 40 minutes walking the dogs)
Water: minimum 2 litres
Vitamin: check!


Magda said...

Just curious, how are you calculating the calories out? I have never done it but it's clear to me those are mostly general calories burned... as I doubt you are doing any 4 hour work outs :D

♥ Dee ♥ said...

Fitday does it for you. I worked out my metabolism formula and told the program how many calories I burn just to stay alive at this weight/age/height, and then when I plug in my activities, it formulates my daily total.

Rather spectacular. Today's includes a 40 minute walk with the dogs on top of my body's general burn.

Magda said...

Hmm what is this fit day.. what doe sit cost?

♥ Dee ♥ said...

I told you about it... www.fitday.com but you said you liked your website better.


Magda said...

Didn't!!! never even saw it poopie face (I may have dismissed it with out looking lol but I never checked it out and then said I liked mine better :D)

♥ Dee ♥ said...

Nope, you never even looked at it. Just dismissed it with "blah blah blah is better because it tracks my workouts and I don't care about calories" or something like that. I had asked if it tracks nutritional intake and you said no, so I dismissed yours.

Yup yup.

Magda said...

I looked at it this time.. still seems like too much work... :D