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If you have issues, or baggage, you may be offended by what you read here. I work through my self loathing of my own fat, and my own fat issues, and I’m told this comes across as loathing all fat people. That is simply not the case.

Here I talk about my issues and my findings, without political correctness. I am not concerned with your issues, or your baggage, or what you may take from this. The title is "My Journey".

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Sunday, February 1, 2009

Bragging all the time... but secretly...

This is TOUGH.

I know I'm totally bragging on here, but I want to admit up front that it is pure bravado. This staying OP on the weekends is hard work!!

I'm sitting here figuring out chili cheese dog day, and having a wee pity party, because I don't have room for chips. And there are going to be bowls of chips here. Sigh.

Will I win? Will I be strong? I want to say yes. I HAVE to say yes. I HAVE to say I will ROCK this. Because if I don't put on that bravado front, the doubt will creep in. Fat me will stick her hand in the bowl and shovel chips in as fast as she can.

That's my reality. I fake it till I make it. 13 days, so far, when I get through today.

*whimper* but it's hard.

Thanks for listening,

Dee

3 comments:

Bre said...

It is tough - but you will prevail - you are stronger than the chips - you are strong!!

If it was easy everyone would do it and there wouldn't be any need for diets, weight loss programs etc. etc...

Bee said...

You can do it! I think a lot of us are having to face food demons today with the Super Bowl. Stay strong. Team Angie is going to kick ass this week!

angelfire777 said...

You are right - it IS hard. Damn hard. But you're winning! And you deserve to win.