I didn't do so bad on the food yesterday, but it was very high in sodium, which I'm now paying for. I'll post pics later, although I didn't get one of the Wor Wonton and the McDonald's ice cream cone I had (NSV: I almost said filet 'o' fish with that ice cream, but didn't).
So I get home from work and Steve and I are chatting and he says to me, "oh, there was a co-inky-dink today... rememember when we were laughing in Costco and I was saying buy HydroxyCut? Well, today on the news they are recalling it because it's causing some sort of serious liver damage".
When are people going to fucking learn??? Did PhenPhen not teach ANYONE ANYTHING????
*waving fingers in front of face and enunciating wildly* THERE IS NO MAGIC PILL, CALORIES IN AND CALORIES OUT WILL GET YOU WHERE YOU WANT TO BE IN WEIGHT, AND THEN WORKING THE MUSCLES WILL DEFINE THEM. CAN YOU FUCKING HEAR ME NOW????
You would not believe how badly this pissed me off. I went on a huge rant (and if you fall into one of these categories, this WILL offend you. You've been warned).
I don't know who is fucking stupider. The pharmaceutical companies that put this shit out, not knowing what the long term effects will be, if there will be any, or the stupid fucking people looking for a shortcut. How in the HELL do you justify taking something that will make you LOOK healthy (IF it works, which is always debatable) if there are no conclusive tests to it's safety and could KILL YOU IN THE LONG RUN. For Fucks Sake, people!! Phen Phen killed people. They recalled it because of the heart issues. Hello? Does anyone in the medical community remember this? Anyone? I don't expect the generations after to know necessarily about it, but you would think that SOMEONE would make a regulation rule or something about long term results in humans.
And those damn companyies kill me. They know that there are people out there who refuse to take responsibility for their personal choices (yes, they can be hard, but I'm ranting right now and ranting is not always politically correct) and are constantly looking for the magic pill, or the magic elixer, or the magic formula that will magically melt away all their fat and reveal the inner Jillian Michaels/Arnold Schwartzenegger. NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. People, really. Come on. If such a thing existed, there would BE no overweight people on Earth. We would have the obesity epidemic under control. Don't you think?
Okay, the medical community actually thought PhenPhen was it. They were prescribing it by the handful. I personally know someone that was taking it. And guess what? She is still close to 300 pounds. Why? Because she chooses foods based on her emotional needs, that's why. It's her choice, and I absolutely love her, but it breaks my heart. Because I know that if there was a magic pill that could help her to control her decision making process, and NOT give her liver failure or heart problems, she'd be all over it.
But it's not going to happen!! And if it is, they need to do 30-50 years of testing on humans to know the actual long term effects. It's called LONG term.
I work goddamn hard for my size (to be smaller). Really fucking hard, emotionally and physically. I refuse to even visit the idea of putting something like HydroxyCut into my body. I don't know what it's going to do. I don't know how my body will react. Hell, even with natural products I'm extremely leary. The natives used them for medicinal purposes... successfully. That tells me that they do affect me. I need to know HOW before contemplating taking something. I research the shit out of it. But at least with herbs I know that they have been around for... oh, I dunno, a bizmillion years? There is at least two hundred years of history to find on the results they have had when consumed by humans, if you look hard enough and research long enough.
When are people going to hold pharmaceutical companies responsible? How many people have to die/develop life threatening ailments before we say "enough is enough". And the fact that it's people who are so desperate for help that they take these products... how sad is that?? People that need the RIGHT help. Someone to personally coach them, mentor them, educate them, and maybe train them. Not many people can afford that. We aren't all movie stars. But we can afford $30 for a bottle of miracle pills. Just in case. This might be the one. It might work. It might save my life. It might... it just might. That's worth it.
NO IT'S NOT!!!
It makes me weep. I want to save the world. I want to... but I can't.
Thanks for listening,
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