If you have issues, or baggage, you may be offended by what you read here. I work through my self loathing of my own fat, and my own fat issues, and I’m told this comes across as loathing all fat people. That is simply not the case.

Here I talk about my issues and my findings, without political correctness. I am not concerned with your issues, or your baggage, or what you may take from this. The title is "My Journey".

This blog is not meant to inspire anyone. I take no responsibility for what you take away from here. You are here as a guest into my inner thoughts.


Tuesday, June 16, 2009

It's Tuesday? Not Friday? Come ON!!

I'm exhausted as if it were Friday. Two nights of fitful sleep because of this damn coughing. ARGH!!

And boy, does it ever affect the scale! I just about fell over when it said 149.2 this morning. I know damn rights that is not correct, and that my weight is in a fluctuation trying to compensate for my lack of sleep. But still shocking, lemme tell ya. Fortunately, I'm educated enough to just shrug it off. I know what I'm doing and what I'm not doing.

Breakfast was yogurt, granola, 1/2 a banana, chocolate chips and almonds. Will I ever get sick of this combination, or variations of this combination? I'm thinking not. Although, I have been craving my egg bagel thingy lately. But it could just be a bread craving, since I'm eating so much of it lately.

Speaking of bread... lunch! A half a sammich with a half an avocado and a slice of tomato. Refreshing! Throw a piece of bison pepperoni on that plate and it is good. But even better? That there vitamuffin.

Have you ever had a vitamuffin? Holy sheep shit!! This is a double chocolate one, and when I pulled it out of the box I thought "it's small". Shrugging, I threw it in the microwave for 20 seconds. After I finished my sandwich and pepperoni, I ripped off a taste of the muffin. And then proceeded to ram it in my gob as fast as humanly possible, smushing the glorious flavour all over my mouth. Seriously decadent. It actually is so moist and delicious that it TASTES like it is iced. And it's not. And it's only 100 calories. Gobsmacking. (ha ha)

*NOTE: I am not turning into a 100 calorie food junkie. Just looking for treats and alternatives that I can add into my days to make them more exciting. Eating this I still remained completely green*

One day I will remember to take pics of my snack. One day. Pfffft.

Today I had yogurt with a peach cut up and a tablespoon of almonds with a squirt of vanilla.

Dinner was soooooo good! I had a burger first bun that was flavoured. I can't remember what the flavour is, but it was really delicious. On that bun was a smooge of half fat ceasar dressing, 1/4 of an avocado, a slice of ff cheese, 1/6th of an onion, fried, and bison. A slice of mini watermelon, and an ounce of greens with a dollop of blue cheese dressing rounded it right out.

Doesn't that look awesome?

I did a half hour of step aerobics today, ran to pick up my neice, and walked her home, did about a half hour of dancing, and then planted my garden for an hour. So I had lots of calories to eat. Love it!

Total calories for the day: 1679 And I still have 200 I can play with.

And now I'm off to pick up my son. He just called begging for a ride. Have a good night!

Thanks for listening,



spunkysuzi said...

Awww hope you get better sleep soon! I commiserate i've had insomnia for the last 2 nights! Finally i'm taking something tonight so that i know i'm going to sleep.
Your food looks awesome :)
Good job i haven't had those vita muffins i wouldn't know when to stop.

Laura said...

Your story is inspiring.

I am in the middle of a wt loss hourney and I am struggling right now. I hope you can help me!

I am interested in hearing more about how lack of sleep impacts wt loss. Recently I have been gaining and lossing the same one or two pounds - making no head way in reaching my goal - and this all started when my work hours changed - could there be a connection???

Anonymous said...

Just came across your blog and I love it! Very Inspiring!