If you have issues, or baggage, you may be offended by what you read here. I work through my self loathing of my own fat, and my own fat issues, and I’m told this comes across as loathing all fat people. That is simply not the case.

Here I talk about my issues and my findings, without political correctness. I am not concerned with your issues, or your baggage, or what you may take from this. The title is "My Journey".

This blog is not meant to inspire anyone. I take no responsibility for what you take away from here. You are here as a guest into my inner thoughts.


Saturday, May 24, 2008

Today's WI

It's a great one! Down one full pound!

I know it would have been more if I hadn't stuffed my face last week with cupcakes, beer & bbq. But the good news is that I worked my ass off this week and it paid off! Imagine what NEXT week will be like!!

I just read the most amazing blog post from a woman who has lost oodles of weight. She has chips and m&m's in her car that she was planning on eating tonight after eating the same this morning. She's bingeing and she confessed on her blog to get herself under control.

I cried. That was me. That still could be me if I let it. I'm not strong and I beat hell out of myself sometimes for it. The cupcakes are a prime example. "I'll have one" I thought when I bought the half dozen. Yeah, no... I ate them all. And I knew I would.

But guess what... I'm human! And so is everybloodyone else out there! I'm NOT alone. This woman's blog inspired me to be a better me. She showed me that I'm not only not alone, I'm also not a freak.

I've joined the Six Week's till Canada Day challenge on the Core Boards. I'm going to lose ten pounds in this six weeks.

You watch... ☺


EricaAnn said...

I can so understand, I am like that too...just yesterday I hid an almond crescent (I ate one of the two on the way back from Safeway and hid the receipt) in my car under the seat and a Bounty bar in the console so that I could go out there and eat them when everyone went to bed...Im an addict...:(

♥ Dee ♥ said...

Yes, you are. So am I.

The good news is, we have the education and the tools to change our behaviours. The great news is that we are strong, capable women who can do any damn thing we set our minds to, even if it means doing it one day at a time. Hell, one hour at a time, or one minute at a time if that's what we need to do!

Someone on the WW site has a signature that reads "Remember, what you eat in private shows in public". Rather profound.

Also, the great thing about changing your lifestyle, vs dieting is that you can have indulgences. Plan for them, account for them, counteract them with a workout and enjoy them!

I ate an entire bag of Baked Lays Cheddar and Sour Cream chips on Sunday night! I bought them on Saturday knowing that after my killer workout I was going to want a treat. Totally planned. Totally guilt free.

I'm learning to live with my addiction and to manage my addiction.