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Here I talk about my issues and my findings, without political correctness. I am not concerned with your issues, or your baggage, or what you may take from this. The title is "My Journey".

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Friday, October 17, 2008

Life Decisions...

Ya'll are aware (obviously) that I have made many changes in my life in this quest for healthy and longevity. Ya'll are also aware that I am turning 40 WAY too soon. WAY too soon. But I digress... (WAAAAY too soon)

I have been thinking about something for a few months now, and have finally come to a decision that is for ME.

Drum roll please...

I'm giving up smoking of any kind.

Yup. You heard me.

Although, I will put this disclaimer: Merritt doesn't count.

I'm turning 40, and yes, I'm wigging out a little bit. But I just keep telling myself that I'm at least in the best health I've ever been in my entire life. I am dedicated to my body, and making this damn thing last as long as possible.

So in order to squeeze out another couple of years, I'm giving up putting smoke in my lungs. It actually won't be hard. I've only consumed once since the wedding. And before that it had been a few weeks. So it's not like I'm chronic and this is a big deal to me.

But here's where you shmokers come in. I need your help in one area. Can I please ask that when we are partying together, you not make me aware that it's an option?

I'm hoping that ya'll can support me in this decision, as I was supported when I quit cigarrettes, and as I was supported when I quit junk food (not sure which was harder, since I still slip with the odd cheeseburger here and there but haven't had a cigarrette in ... 19 months).

I don't want anyone to think that this is in reaction to anyone else's decisions/thoughts/process'. I'm being completely honest when I tell you that I have been thinking about this for a while. At least three months, if not longer. I want to do this for me. I want to live longer and healthier. I want to be someone that others look up to and emulate (is that too narcissistic?).

I just wanna be healthy.

Thanks for listening.


Magda said...

Good choice.... like the cheese burger no crisis if you slip once a year... but better in the long run. The last time I had some was either with you... or in Brazil. I'm a hmmm lemmi try this once every 2 years kinda girl. Not that I can be much help in this endeavor but you have my full support :)

Your Mommy said...

I too support you in this. As you know I do not do A lot of smoking or drinking myself but that is a personal chose one that we each have to make for our selves. LOve mom