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Monday, December 22, 2008

Anyone see the wagon??

Okay, breathe...

I'm totally NOT stepping on the scale. Nope. You CAN't make me.

Remember me whining about oysters and olives a while back? Well, yesterday I woke up with the plan to eat a healthy brunch because we were going to Christmas dinner with all my people. Good plan, right? Yeeeah, except I opened the cupboard to grab oatmeal, and I see the oysters.

"Hey, babe" I yell into the living room, as Steve is setting up the tv with the hockey game for us. "How would you like oyster picnic for breakfast?"

Well, you should have heard his yes! It was like I had wrapped my naked body in a ribbon and said Merry Christmas! He never gets oyster picnic anymore (poor bastard).

So for brunch we had smoked oysters, green olives, garlic coil, cheese, triscuit thins - parmesan garlic flavour (oh my yum), and ancient grain crackers. Then we broke into the chocolates. Lowrey's Chocolate Cherries, Pot of Gold, Ovation, and Hedgehogs.

Just before heading out to dinner, I got hungry, so instead of grabbing the apple I was heading for, I shrugged it off and grabbed the chips. Logan and I munched on a new flavour of chips and discovered we quite liked it!

At dinner I didn't do toooooo bad. I had a little bit of everything, but I knew that everything was made with tons of real butter and cream. So even a little bit had a swack of calories. However, I didn't have pie after. I did eat a couple of samples of baking. But I was sooo full.

Steve and I went home and watched Get Smart. Hilarious! Especially if you remember the original series. I had quite a few nostalgic moments. Which I washed down with the rest of the chips. Sigh.

Today I still feel full. And I decided that come hell or high water, I'm eating well today. It's my "just for today" thought. So for breakfast I chopped an apple and made oatmeal. But after eating the apple, I'm not hungry for the oatmeal, so I'm not forcing myself to eat it. If I want it later I will.

I have a spinach salad planned for lunch, with some pork loin for protein. I'm feeling the need for fibre though, if you know what I mean . Water is DEFINATELY on my agenda today. As is a run on the treadmill.

Just because I'm choosing to enjoy my holiday doesn't mean that I should allow myself to become completely complacent. After all, complacency got me over 200lbs once.


Thanks for listening,



Marisa said...

The wagon keeps making pit stops at my house. I jump on, I jump off. It's like a freakin bus!!

Good luck eating today!!! We can do it!