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Here I talk about my issues and my findings, without political correctness. I am not concerned with your issues, or your baggage, or what you may take from this. The title is "My Journey".

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Monday, January 19, 2009

Presents Posterior for Commencment of Kicking

Seriously... like I don't know better???

"I just have to be good on the weekends!" Who the hell am I kidding??? I suck at weekends. And I know I'm doing it, and I do it ANYWAYS!!!.

Saturday: I know I'm going for wings. Do I choose to eat healthy for the other meals of the day? Hell no! I run around the car slashing all the tires. Breakfast was a half cup of apple cinnamon cherrios, lunch was a double cheeseburger from McDonalds. Add a Starbucks coffee for snack, and then pile 15 wings and an order of fries on top, and you've got Saturday.

Sunday I decided that I was definately going to clean up my act. So for breakfast I eat a bowl of oatmeal, tricked out with prunes and craisins. Great start! I go out shopping and pick up all my veggies and fruits for the week and realize on the way home that I need lunch... STAT. I decide to stop at Subway for a healthier option. Good choice, right? Except they have 2 footlongs for 9.99. So I decide to get one for Steve. And for some reason, I decide to get a stripe of light mayo on mine. AND cheese! I havent' done that in over a year! And then? Do I only eat half of it? Hell no! I ate the whole damn thing!!

And did I stop there?? Nope. I purposefully walked up to the store and bought me a bag of baked Lays. And two chocolate bars. I ate the EatMore on the way home, and the dark chocolate burnt almond whatever it was AFTER polishing off the entire bag of chips.... which I scarfed AFTER having dinner, which was homeade pea soup (very few calories so an excellent choice in a sea of yuck).


Then, I set my alarm for 6:20. Gonna get up and Shred. Except that it went off, and I switched it to 7:20 and decided to shred later. Sigh. I'm so not a morning person. The best intentions never work for me in the mornings.

My fuel today?

Br: 1/3 cup oatmeal w/ three strawberries & two chopped prunes, milk & vitamin.

Lu: 1/2 squirrely bread sandwich with chicken breast, tomato & sprouts & a cup of pea soup

Sn: pear

Dn: stir fry with beef, broccoli, cauliflower, celery, yellow pepper, mushrooms, snow peas.

I will get on that treadmill today and do interval training. And I will shred. I owe it to myself.

Thanks for listening,



Marisa (Trim The Fat) said...

Look, I am in no position to be kicking anyone's ass, as I have had my own difficulties lately, HOWEVER, KNOCK IT OFF!!! How was that??? Seriously though, it's over and done. Your food looks great today and you're back on track. Clean Slate. Moving on...

Shred your ass off and make the treadmill your BFF this week :) You can do it, DEE!!!!!

Anonymous said...

omg - I had no idea what your title meant until I read your post - then I almost wet my pants! What I love about you is that you are REAL, and HONEST about your struggles, anyone else who is on the path of losing weight can totally relate to you. Keep on track, you are doing great :)

Becca55 said...

Whenever you find yourself slipping just remember that tommorow is another day. Don't beat yourself up about it. Everyone has those days and as long as you can pick yourself up and get right back to it that is all that matters! You can do it Good luck

Becca55 said...

Oh yeah btw, thanks for refering me to this blog site, tho I havnt gotten any folowers or readers, i am a little discouraged. i am new to this site and am wondering if I am doing something wrong? Is there a way to put my blog posts "out there" and spread the word?

Krista said...

*winds up... takes two steps back... no, steps one forwards as she realises she's really not one to talk... takes deep breath... kicks you in your ASS*

there... happy now?


Luv ya

♥ Dee ♥ said...

LOL... I love you guys!!

Becca, I didn't have any followers until I started following other blogs and commenting. Then people follow your link, like what they see, and follow you.