Jesus Suffering FUCK!!!
I just added a column to my excel sheet of weight loss tracking for last year. And am I ever disgusted with myself!!!
Because I'm in the BLBE, I am losing at a steady pace, and I decided that since this is the year I'm going to get at goal, I wanted to see how much I'm losing, so far this year. So I created a column and put in all the formulas, to find that I've lost 5.4 lbs so far this year. Woot! Go me!! That's nice and slow and steady (shut UP, interal IGG).
But then, I decided to copy and paste that badboy over to LAST year's excel sheet. And now I am banging my head on my desk. I wasted an entire year!!! All told, by the end of the year, wanna know how much I lost?? Five pounds. FIVE POUNDS!!!!
There were points where that number was up to 16 lbs lost for the year, but I waffled back and forth, and then with my nine pound gain over Christmas, the year ended with a five pound difference for the entire year.
THIS year will be different. My life begins TODAY. EVERY day. That's utterly ridiculous that I maintained for an entire year, when I wasn't even at goal.
The silver lining is that I will ROCK maintenance... lol. But then I knew that. I joked about it all year. But in all honesty, I didn't realize it was THAT bad.
Wow. We have to learn from our past, huh?
Oh, if you want a copy of my excel sheet for your own tracking purposes, gimme your email address and I'll send it to you. Same with my measurements sheets if you want.
Thanks for listening,
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