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Friday, May 8, 2009


Okay, I've been hovering between 148 and 150 for the last week, and I've just about had enough.

Time to get my head out of the sand before I pull a Kirstie. I know what the issues are. In fact there are three of them:

1). I don't get my allotment of freggies in each day.
2) Too many bread products, even if I am within my caloric budget.
3) Not listening to hunger / satisfied body signals even if I am within my caloric budget.

There's the crux. I stay within my caloric budget, and I shoot for green, but I am seriously FULL. I eat what's on my plate instead of stopping when I'm satisfied.

So I'm going to commit to ONE thing today that I will focus on for the next week. When I have that back under control, I will choose another focus. My ONE thing this week is this: No matter what is on my plate, I will stop eating when I am satisfied.

That's it. I will wrap it up. And if I'm hungry in an hour, I'll unwrap it, nuke it, and eat it. I don't care if it's one bite or half a plate, I'm NOT going to finish when my stomach is telling me I'm satisfied. I've had too many moments of "oof, I should have stopped earlier and now I feel bloated" lately, and I'm not liking it. If I eat under my calories, is it going to kill me? NO. In fact, maybe, JUST maybe, it'll get me down around the 145 mark or lower, which is where I really want to be.

The freggies I've been putting back in all week. So I feel like I already started on that one. And yes, I'll cut back on the bread products... but I really feel the need for this focus.

I keep thinking of Oprah saying to Kristie, "You give yourself leeway for five pounds and twentyfive pounds later you're saying what the hell happened".


Anyone care to join me?

Thanks for listening,



Krista "Phoenix" said...

I'm in! :) FREGGIES... love it.

Angie All The Way said...

If I could just master that ONE thing I'd be laughing! It's seriously the hardest thing ever! I WILL get there...eventually!