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Here I talk about my issues and my findings, without political correctness. I am not concerned with your issues, or your baggage, or what you may take from this. The title is "My Journey".

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Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Tuesday's Musings

I sad... a little. Michelle and I aren't working out together until Thursday. She thinks Wednesday, but I have to pick up Mummy from the ferry. Still need to tell Michelle that. I find I work out way harder with her there. It's not a competition, but I feel like I have to keep up and then some. Girl can move!!!

Today instead of feeling sorry for myself (she works a late shift), I did an hour of yoga. That fat burning dvd I bought at Value Village. It's an hour workout which is awesome. Doesn't raise the heartrate, so doesn't burn a swack of calories, but man does it make my body feel amazing. Then I shook my groove thang to country music for a half hour to get the heart rate up.

This all left me HONGRY for dinner. But wait... let's start at the beginning, shall we?

First off, I woke up to this bit of gardeny goodness:

I growed it!! From a sketti squash I eated, too!!!! Woot!!

What suprised me was how far it had grown by dinnertime. The first pic is at 8am, this second is at 6pm. Holy super growth!! Kinda looks like that talking hungry plant in that movie... I know what I mean.

Okay, food! Breakfast was old faithful. Yes, I enjoy smoothies, green monsters, etc. But I always end up back at oatmeal. I just love this stuff. In the pot was 1/3 cup each of water, porridge and almond breeze, 1 squirt vanilla, and a 1/4 cup craisins. On top was 1T each of almonds and choco chips. Swoon!

Lunch was leftover chicken meat warmed up over spinach with a tablespoon of caesar w/bacon dressing. I love that shit. A half a tomato and a tablespoon of craisins provide the vitamin C for this meal.

Snack was two oatmeal raisin cookies I forgot to take a pic of. *hangs head* But the calories are accounted for and I'm within budget. *leaps for joy*

Dinner came and I was STARVING. A bit of a mishmosh. That's a veggie burger from M&M's on a Dempster's bun (the bun is only 110 calories! zero nutrition, but still!) with a sploosh of sweet chili sauce. Broccoli and a kelp leaf were the veggies. Steamed. Kelp is gross. Gotta tell ya. Bitter. I ate it anyways, cuz it's good for me. That white unidentifiable thing? Yeah, that's called a Rice Roll. Mom suggested it when we were in the asian market. I won't be buying this again. It's entirely flavourless so you have to coat the crap out of it with soy sauce (read: sodium). It tastes... white. Those of you who have been on this journey for a while will understand what I mean by that. Just not worth it to me.

Mind you, I may have overcooked it. I'm going to try it again and see. Nothing like the ol' college try, right? Maybe I can find a less sodium filled way to flavour it. We'll see. I have another 300 grams of it. Which is about two servings.

So that's it for tonight. Not sure that I can have popcorn tonight. I don't really have it in the calorie budget, but I've been jonesing for it. I have a hard time breaking rituals. Tuesday is popcorn day END OF DISCUSSION. *sigh* I miss Biggest Loser. *sigh* I miss popcorn. *sigh* I miss family night. Anyone hear when the next season starts?

*ducks out to check NBC.com*

Gah! It just says "this fall".
Well, off I go... to... sit on my couch? Yeah! I got my new Women's Health in the mail today. Time for some reading.
Love to all!
Thanks for listening,



Watching and Weighting said...

DEEEEEEEEE! Your blog does make me smile - sounds mad but i feel like i 'hear' you when you write because of the way you write - hilarious! When i first saw the pic of your green handed efforts (bravo!) I was like 'she ate mud for breakfast? what the?' but then i clicked on! haha.

Have a great wednesday xxx

Marisa (Trim The Fat) said...

I'm comin to visit you; then we'll go to the Chocolate Factory, come back to your house, SIT and watch reruns of Biggest Loser while eating GIANT bowls of your PMS popcorn! How's that sound =)

sweet26 said...

isn't it so fun watching the plant babies grow? i thought i was going to kill my bf when he snapped my pea plant!

EricaAnn said...

Thank you thank you thank you for your ongoing accountability, Dee!
I so appreciate your tenacity, humor and honesty! xo
You are one of the persons keeping me knowing I can do this xo