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Thursday, June 25, 2009


Here I sit, bawling my face off... it's reminiscent of the shock and mourning that I went through when Princess Di died.

Michael Jackson is dead.

I can't even tell you how devastated I am. I don't care about all the contraversey. I don't care what colour his skin was. He was an artist like no other. He paved the way for so many of today's artists. So much of today's culture started with him.

I can't tear away from it. I'm in my office, trying to work, with tears streaming down my face, listening to the tv blasting in the living room.

An icon is dead.

He was such a huge part of my teen years. I loved him. LOVED him. My bedroom door was covered in pictures of him. I wallpapered my door with him. Pictures during his Beat It days. Billie Jean. Today, if I saw him, I would be one of those screaming blithering idiots. He does that to me. Did that to me. Past tense now, I guess. Oh, that hurts.



I just know that there are going to be people that have negative to say. That will only remember the molestation charges. That will mock him. And that will tear me apart. My struggle over the next while will be avoiding those types of speakers. I'm sure it won't be easy.

He was brilliant. He was tragic. And I loved him unconditionally through it all. I never judged him. It wasn't my place.



The Momma said...

very sad he was an Icon

Chris H said...

I never liked him.. yet I feel some heavy weight sitting on me since I heard of his sudden death. It is very sad ... especially for his children. It is so sad when someone dies so young and unexpectedly like that. It's almost the same feeling I got when Princess Di died... kinda stunned. weird.

Chris H said...

OH and don't go hating me for saying I didn't like him... we all have different music tastes is all I'm saying.

Krista "Phoenix" said...

You know, I can't stand people who judge an artist by their personal ups and downs... they are famous for their ART... not their LIVES. Madonna, Britney Spears, Mel Gibson, Michael Jackson... you know what... I like them ALL. I don't care what stupid crap they've done, what mistakes they've made or if they were ever wrongfully accused of anything... I'm a fan because I admire their ability to do their jobs and ENTERTAIN ME! We've ALL had dark moments in our lives, and shouldn't be judged by those moments either!

Michael Jackson was a brilliant artist, his music will live forever. What we think about his life's choices, his mistakes, the accusations flung at him, and if we believe them to be true... should have no bearing whatsoever on the fact that it IS devastating to lose such an incredile icon, a legend in music history.

{hugs} tell all those negative people to f*** right off.

♥ Dee ♥ said...

No worries Chris, I knew what you meant.

It's funny, I likened that moment to when I first heard the news of Princess Di. Deja vu for me.