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Thursday, February 26, 2009


I have got to get my yoga dvd back from Michelle's. Definately therapy vs workout for me. My muscles are so freaking tight this morning.

Last night we did Bob's bootcamp. Did I say that already in a previous post? Ah well, whatevs. This is my second time doing it. The first time I used 3lb weights, since I didn't know what I was going to be in for. Better to err on the side of caution, in my world. I avoid injuries like the plague.

That first time, it was a great workout. But I wanted more. So last night I did it with 5lb weights. There was only one part where I gave up on what he was doing and did my own thing. My shoulders just couldn't do it.

So overall a fanTAStic hard workout. It's 55 minutes long, so pretty brutal. But next time, I will come home and spend another 10 minutes stretching. I woke up this morning, and my lower back and hamstrings were so tight. I layed in bed, stretching for five minutes before even getting up. It helped. But man I wish I had my yoga DVD. That would fix me right up.

I've planned my menu for the day! I cut up a fresh pineapple this morning. There is nothing like fresh pineapple. It's probably my favourite fruit. Plus it reminds me of when I was 11 and we went to Hawaii... my dad went out every morning to a pineapple farm and brought us back fresh picked pineapple for breakfast. It is a fantastic memory that I hang on to. So fresh pineapple is special to me. Which is good, because a whole pineapple is a lot of fruit!

Here's today's plan:

Br: 1/3 cup oatmeal, 1/3 cup almond breeze, 1/4 cup prunes, 1/2 cup pineapple, splash of vanilla, milk & vitamins (422 calories)

Lu: leftover Italian buffalo meatloaf mashed into a 1/2 cup steamed cabbage and 1/2 cup whole wheat couscous with 2 tablespoons salsa (330 calories)

Sn: 1/2 cup pineapple, 1/2 cup plain fat free yogurt, 1/4 cup flax granola (192 calories)

Dn: 4 oz pork loin, 1 cup cauliflower, 3 mushrooms, 1/2 cup couscous (393 calories)

That's 1338 for the day. But I haven't tracked the workouts I'm going to do. Mainly cuz I'm not sure yet what they will be. I'd like to say running, but I hate running on the treadmill and there's freakin snow on the ground. Plus, with as tight as my muscles are... not sure that's a good idea. Maybe I'll do a brisk treadmill walk. Plus my walk to pick up my niece, plus my workout with Michelle tonight. Either way, I'll have some calories to play with.

Last night, to end the evening after my workout, I ate a banana and a glass of milk. I was short close to 300 calories, so I used those to make up some of the difference. I wasn't "hungry hungry" so I left it at that.

Thanks for listening,



Squishy ! said...

Yeah, tight muscles are not much fun. I hope that you start to feel looser soon!