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Here I talk about my issues and my findings, without political correctness. I am not concerned with your issues, or your baggage, or what you may take from this. The title is "My Journey".

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Monday, March 23, 2009

Good Weekend, Bad Blogger!

Well... where to even begin! It's been only about three days, but it feels like I haven't blogged in forever!

The cold is almost gone. I stayed hopped up on cold meds all weekend, which killed most of it off. But this is a persistant bugger. It's still lingering a little bit. As a result I have not worked out since last Wednesday. Or was it Tuesday? I don't even know... sad.

Friday was the usual working all day. I hopped on the scale, only to have it say I was 149.0 lbs. Gak! The only reason EVER to wish for your period, I tell ya. It came, and by Sunday my weight was down to 145.2. Phew!

Saturday was the best day I have had in a super long time. I had so much girl time with my extra special peeps. It was so awesome! And a fun date evening with the whole gang to go see an improv show. Then hanging out in Denny's afterwards. So much fun!

By the time we got to Denny's it was 9pm, and I had about 500 calories left in my day to spend. I ordered the chicken fajita meal, but I ditched the tortillas (white flour yuck) and just ate the chicken and veggies. Can you believe it was served with hashbrowns covered in bacon and cheese??? I had one bite then gave the rest to my husband to finish. I was super proud of myself for my ordering and eating. Mind you, it was greasy as hell, but it coulda been soooo much worse!

Sunday was an easy day. I layed on the couch for pretty much all of it, except one bout of grocery shopping. I indulged and had popcorn for lunch (he he he) and pizza for dinner. It was heavenly.

Today has been game on. I'm back on the healthy eating bandwagon and had PLANNED to work out tonight, but Michelle called to postpone and still hasn't called to get together. It's after 8pm now, so I think I'll call it a night and consider it my last day of rest.

I had to take pics for work, so when I got all dressed up for our Saturday date, I had Logan take some shots of me. Most were awful, but a couple were keepers. This one I've posted... it's a keeper, but it makes me take a step back. I've been talking a lot lately about having to reconcile that 40 year old woman in the mirror. This pic is exactly that. A 40 year old woman. Holy shit. I'm looking my age. And it makes me want to cry. I don't feel like I have an old lady neck, but I certainly do. Sam mentioned one time about a colleague of hers who could tell a woman's age by her neck. You can certainly see mine, can't you? Gah.

Breakfast was great. I had a 1/2 cup of dry cottage cheese with a half of a ginormous orange.

Lunch was not so great, plus I forgot pics. I did an english muffin with fat free cream cheese and jam, a homeade muffin a little later, and a cup of carrots.

Snack was 3/4 cup yogurt with 1/4 cup flax pumpkin granola and a tablespoon of chocolate chips.

Dinner was butter chicken with spinach salad.

Thanks for listening,



MeltingLisa said...

You look fabulous! I was going to say for 40, but I hate it when people say that to me haha .. you look fabulous for any age!

I am obsessive with neck and face creams right now, my hubby is ready to take the credit card away from me! One of the only benefits of being fat .. no wrinkles .... can't tell my age by my neck when I have a double chin! So creaming away in the hope that as I loose weight I don't wake up one day with the wrinkles that are hiding under the fat cells ..

Magda said...

Buy some pure african shae butter... mix it with olive oil and put it all over every couple of days. :) It supposedly works wonders

Krista "Phoenix" said...

Well I think you look FABULOUS! AND I will second the whole Shae butter thing... that stuff is amazing, although I've never mixed it with olive oil...

because it's a natural nut butter your body absorbs it better than any other kind of lotion. And although it feels like grease at first it soaks in really quickly and you can't feel it at all after a minute which makes it great for all over use, even on your face!

Wow... I really am a nerd...


Fatinah said...

I think you look beautiful!

Anonymous said...

thanks for stopping by, and thanks for the words of encouragement, you look awesome! I am totally inspired.

Liway said...

I think you look awesome too!!! :) Um...any chance you might share that recipe for butter chicken!! YUM!!!! :) liway@sunwave.net

You're such an inspiration!!

Becca55 said...

Dee you Look Awesome!! I was hoping to see more recent pics of your Fabulous success. Id love that recipe for the butter chicken as well, that looks so yummy.

Anonymous said...

you look fab-u-lous!

♥ Dee ♥ said...

Okay, the recipe for the butter chicken is stupid simple and you will laugh.

3 chicken breasts, cut into bite size pieces
1 large can of diced "no salt added" tomatoes
1 packet of 50 gram Indian Butter Chicken, Spice Paste for Poultry, mild (Asian Home Gourmet)
1 cup plain fat free yoghurt
1/2 small box whole wheat linguine

I browned the meat, slopped in the tomatoes, dumped in the packet. Cooked the linguine while it simmered for 20 minutes. Threw it all together and mixed in the yogurt. Voila.

I remain... the queen of shortcuts.