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Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Today started out ever so sexy. Gawd, I feel bad for my poor husband sometimes. Last night was horrendous. I coughed and spat through most of it. This morning, I'm sure Steve was not diggin waking up to me propped up against the headboard (lying down just made me cough), with a snot rag in one hand, a cup of lung butter (eww) on the nightstand, my nose completely red, dry and crusty, and drool dripping down my chin. Okay the drool part was for dramatic effect but you never know... there coulda been drool.

This cold is pissing me right OFF. Either hit me hard and be done or fuck off and be done. This lingery bullshit is bullshit.

Sick of me whining yet? Yeah, me too. I hate being negative. Read my posts! I'm usually Mary Sunshine!

Today's food could only be defined as "comfort food". Which sadly puts my cholesterol, sodium and saturated fats into the red zones, despite staying well under my caloric budget. pfftt. Don't care.

(okay I care a little bit)

Breakfast was one whole egg (a special treat) with a quarter cup egg whites, a slice of dry Black Russian Rye toast, milk and vitamins. That egg is what shot my cholesterol into the red. 341 calories.

Lunch was the infamous Pita Pizza. Today's had comfort bacon on it. And not back bacon (or as my American friends call it "Canadian bacon"). I'm talkin real bacon. Plus tofu, mushrooms, black and green olives. Also, this time I cut it into six pieces. You know what? The mind is dumb. I felt like I was eating WAY more with it being in six pieces. 492 calories.

The planned snack was a cut up apple with a 1/2 cup pineapple, 1/2 cup plain fat free yoghurt, and 1/4 cup flax pumpkin granola. 288 calories.

The unplanned snack, thus the one not pictured was the leftover popcorn from last night. Nothing like stale popcorn to make you feel better. Pffffft. 88 calories.
Dinner was again, built for comfort, not speed. And it tipped my sodium round the bend. 3.3 ounces of pork shoulder roast, with a huge helping of roasted beets, potatoes and mushrooms. Super uber yum for 414 calories.

Can anyone tell me why the HELL this last bit all bunches together now matter HOW many f*cking spaces I put between each *&^%$ paragraph????????????????
Total calories for the day: 1623
I still have a couple hundred if I should feel snacky later.
And I am sooo not working out tonight. I did a 15 minute incline walk with weights to do my arms and shoulders at lunch. I sweated. Good enough for me.

Thanks for listening to me bitch once again,



Ron said...

Well at least you didn't sugarcoat anything.... nothing like telling it like it is...LOL ... seriously I hope you get to feeling better soon!

Magda said...

take 1 to three days off of working out... light walks are ok... bust seriously I've had the linger thing before, it's because you're sick and your body is fighting it but then you use energy to work out and .. then the bug grabs hold again while your tired.. take a rest.. seriously.. or .. do it your way and stay 1/2 sick for weeks on end whatever floats your boat..:P
Also take echinacea and oregano oil.. they work wonders..

Lainey said...

The space thing is because you have pictures in your post. For some reason, it screws up the formatting. Try pressing the "shift" key at the same time as the "enter" key, and that should fix it.

As for my "freggies" (it took me a bit to figure out what you were talking about), you're right! I didn't eat any today, but I went shopping this evening (probably while you were commenting! lol)and bought some so they will be posted later. :o)

Marisa (Trim The Fat) said...

Sorry you're still yucky :( Ever try a Neti Pot? Works great to clear out the nose stuff.

Yummy eats - could ya taste any of it???

Krista "Phoenix" said...


incidentally, I made my mom try some of your evil popcorn concoction.... she says to tell you PTHTHTTHTHTHTHTHTH from her. ROFL

♥ Dee ♥ said...

Ron - sugar coating? Too many calories!

Magda - sooo taking your advice. Today is the only day I can truly rest, as I work and have plans for the weekend. Thanks, honey.

Lainey - you are a GOD. And glad to hear you are freggie loading up. LOL I wondered if you would know what I meant.

Marisa - I've seen that nettie pot thing... weird. As for tasting, that's the good part of this... I can still taste all my yummy eats!