If you have issues, or baggage, you may be offended by what you read here. I work through my self loathing of my own fat, and my own fat issues, and I’m told this comes across as loathing all fat people. That is simply not the case.

Here I talk about my issues and my findings, without political correctness. I am not concerned with your issues, or your baggage, or what you may take from this. The title is "My Journey".

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Friday, May 22, 2009



I adjusted my NutriMirror back to losing mode. Dammit. 151lbs is NOT where I want to be. I'm doing something about it now, before five becomes ten, ten becomes twenty, and I'm back in a really bad place. Not happening.

I'm also getting serious about that damn eating until satisfied thing. I sat and really thought about it this morning and realized that my green monster is HUGE and makes me uncomfortably full. Yes, it is amazing nutrition. Yes, it is full of antioxidants and cancer fighting goodness. But it is making me too full! I think it's the tofu. 50 grams of tofu is a lot of protien. I think when it was just milk, yogurt and fruit 2 cups was nice, but add tofu into the mix and that two cups is feeling like three.

So half is back in the fridge, and if I need it for a snack later this morning, it's there. If not, it's breaky tomorrow (depending on it's shelf life... I'm not sure).

It's Friday, which means work work work. I work from 9-3, then 4-10. Long day. I usually can't squeeze in a workout, but I'm going to try and do something. Even if it's dancing at my desk. Although my job these days involves lots of typing, which is not condusive to dancing. But I'll do the best I can to move my butt!

I've set my weight goal for 145 by July 5th. See you back on the skinny side!

Thanks for listening,



spunkysuzi said...

Lurv your new picture :)

Totally understand the need to re-focus, it takes a long time i think to get to the point where your doing exactly what you need to do without thinking!
You'll be in skinnyville in no time, in fact i think your already there :)

Fatinah said...

it's funny you mention eating until staisfied. I find when I'm following points... if I have measured out my serving for a certain amt of points, I eat until it's gone, because it seems like too much work to figure out how much of the serving I ate.... so often I end up eating past satisfied. Which, of course, is silly and counter-productive!!

Good luck with finding satisfaction when eating!!

Marisa (Trim The Fat) said...

I know you'll do it, Dee!

SeaShore said...

That's doable! You can do it!