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Monday, May 11, 2009

Go Me!!

I just went to Safeway, looking for something for Steve for dessert for his birthday tonight. I was thinking something decadent and light, like a strawberry shortcakey thing, or a fruit filled croissant with whip cream or something. Alas, the bakery sucked. But I did not want something big, or I'd end up bingeing on it! I know me. *smart*

So I ended up getting this tiny little cake. It's a chocolate mousse thingy, and it's maybe four bites. I'll stick a candle in it, and sing to him. *giggle*

But the "go me" part is that I started wandering around justifying in my head, "since I'm not eating cake, I can have something ELSE". I wandered by the cookies. Mmmm, oatmeal raisin. Meh, the last couple of times I got them here they weren't a 10. Okay, stuffed muffins... oh, look, a carrot cake muffin filled with creamcheese frosting! Jeez, how many calories would that be, dumdum. Walk away.

I wandered two circuits of the bakery and then headed over to the deli section. I grabbed the smallest packet of imitation crab and stormed to the checkout. I indulged in that whole packet of crabby goodness in the car, on the way home, mentally patting myself on the back the entire way. I'm so proud of me! That's my afternoon snack, and it's not atrocious!! And, I didn't eat a gizillion pounds of it! And I stopped myself from bakery insanity! And I didn't indulge in binge behaviour! Go me!!

Thanks for listening,



spunkysuzi said...

You are my hero for being able to pass by the bakery!!

Ah...Me So Hongry! said...

Go You!!! Quick question about the peanut butter you refer to in your favorite snack...PB2. How is the taste? Does it still taste like and resemble peanut butter? I made the mistake of buying Better Than Peanut Butter and it was not!

♥ Dee ♥ said...

I find it does, and most people do, but some I've seen in the blog world hated it.

Tell you what to do... google PB2 and go to their website and request a sample to be sent to you!

Marisa (Trim The Fat) said...

Yay, YOU!!!

carla said...


and I freakin adore how you phrased it that you walked to circuits of the store as well.

Love that :)


The Momma said...

good for you babe