I just went to Safeway, looking for something for Steve for dessert for his birthday tonight. I was thinking something decadent and light, like a strawberry shortcakey thing, or a fruit filled croissant with whip cream or something. Alas, the bakery sucked. But I did not want something big, or I'd end up bingeing on it! I know me. *smart*
So I ended up getting this tiny little cake. It's a chocolate mousse thingy, and it's maybe four bites. I'll stick a candle in it, and sing to him. *giggle*
But the "go me" part is that I started wandering around justifying in my head, "since I'm not eating cake, I can have something ELSE". I wandered by the cookies. Mmmm, oatmeal raisin. Meh, the last couple of times I got them here they weren't a 10. Okay, stuffed muffins... oh, look, a carrot cake muffin filled with creamcheese frosting! Jeez, how many calories would that be, dumdum. Walk away.
I wandered two circuits of the bakery and then headed over to the deli section. I grabbed the smallest packet of imitation crab and stormed to the checkout. I indulged in that whole packet of crabby goodness in the car, on the way home, mentally patting myself on the back the entire way. I'm so proud of me! That's my afternoon snack, and it's not atrocious!! And, I didn't eat a gizillion pounds of it! And I stopped myself from bakery insanity! And I didn't indulge in binge behaviour! Go me!!
Thanks for listening,
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